Unfortunately I am starting to doubt myself and the chance we have been offered. It is all taking too long in my mind. Some things, like jobs, should happen in an instant. You should know in a day or so and you can plan your life around it, especially when it is a big movement. Our big movement was another country.
I think that I should have had some sort of answer by now and, not having it, I am starting to feel the depression vibes kicking in. As much as I do not want to go there, I can not help. So instead of that, I am going to tell you people about it and get it out of my system. Ready?
How unfortunate that it did not happen. Boohoo to me. Have a cry, Stephen! Feel better now? Good. Let’s move on.
I borrowed this blog post from AMS Daily.
Happy Twenty Twelve!.
This comes from one of my favourite blogs – AMS Daily. Have a look please – it is worth it.
A single tear is all I want to cry this year
A single tear for my boys this year
There, I’ve done it
I’ve cried that tear
Please let me move on
Merry Christmas Ben & Sam
My love for you both will
never fade or burn away
Some day I’ll be drinking with the seldom seen kids
(thanks to Elbow)
Here is a post from the wonderful AMS Daily blog. Simple yet wonderfully poignant.
Today is a contemplative day, looking at things I am used to and wondering when the next time that I see them will be. A day of what-ifs and whens. A day of being thankful for been given the chance. A day of believing that this is what is wanted of me.
There are stirrings, whispers, hushed conversations about this and that. Impacts of changes. What about this? What do we do about that? How? has been asked a lot as well. Then again, none of it matters until it happens.
I have been wondering lately whether I believe in God or not. I had believed that I believe, which has changed my life for the better.
But last night my wife and I watched a film called Dogma. It was one we had both watched years before but had decided to watch again.